The Mighty Shiva is bound
The Catholic Church. So precisely called an ancient relic. They are Against abortion and Against birth control. They are Against women. They are Against Gays,Lesbians,and Transgendered people. I am still shocked by hatred. As old as I am. Still blown out of my seat by it. I grew up with a mother that was raised catholic. and even though she left the church after smacking a priest across the face when she was 15...they told her she was nothing and she has always believed it. They de-sexualized her. They stole her Womanhood. They praised a freaking Virgin. They Worshipped a freaking Virgin. Im going to tell you something. Ive been self-satisfying myself for about a year now (the sin of onin i believe its called) and Celibacy has brought me none closer to a spiritual revelation. Im almost sure my mother never masturbated. She got me a book when I was 13 about how my libido and masturbating were the work of the devil and I should just pray to god for self control. That of course never happened. I was then told..that I was a lesbian because I masturbated. So. I let my family think what they wanted. I let the ignorant masses think I was a lesbian. I was never beat up for it. My life was never in jeopardy or anything. But I know. What fucking ignorant religious based hatred feels like. Go Die Catholic Church. Its time You Were put to Rest. All of your LIES....They have done nothing but create PRISONS. I was molested when I was a little girl by various people...one of whom was in the church. I made a decision many years ago..that I would not have my sexuality ruined by these people. I would not be robbed of my sexual identity......not by liars and thieves and hate teachers. I watched once..as my mom turned away a friend she'd had for years....only because this girl came out to her. "its a sin Jennifer..and I cant be party to that.."
I was 11. and I knew then that that was bull shit. I know how it feels. I know from a distant hetero distance. But I know.
So much darkness in the world. and the one place where light can shine..the one place ...where LOVE should be center..and HATE and IGNORANCE... have taken centerstage....it just sickens me.
I am increasingly frustrated. because there is too much revolution needed ...and not enough arms on my body to take care of it.
Oh. to be a mighty Shiva.
I just want love. I just want peace.
hugs to all
