stella was a diver and shes always down

JL is going to be a rock star or at least a producer. is that not the coolest thing ever? "you supported me for so long..but somehow Im not impressed..." -interpol keep in mind JL was going to be a methodist minister...so of course producer was just a natural progression. she is good for him. Im happy about that. If you ever hear of a band called Fred From Produce (get you FFP tshirts now)..thats him...he is the genius behind it.

Im at my bros casa....feeding the fish...hanging out with the cat...and otherwise feeling pretty good considering the bit of bull's blood Ive had to drink. Its A Wine. I had a wonderful meal...lots of chocolate...and life is good.

have I mentioned I didnt have to work today???

I want to rent a car and head west. I want to stop by refluence's place and take her out. take her with me. then we can go to jwinokur and do odd things and take pictures of it. and the sun will be shining. the sun will be warm. maybe Ill come get all of you. and we can watch the sun come up on the california coast.

thats what I want. a spaceship. a rocketshipt. to take me somplace left of this dull right. need opportunity to present it self. I want. I want. I need. I desire. I am hungry for. what makes this man dream. the faith of someone who sees him for good and bad and take him on with trust anyway.

we give them flight. ladies. boys. how we believe in you.

there are good men here in our little community. refusal,supercilious,jwinokur,preceptions,blam and a host of others...oh god...yeah..exel....guh..I hate forgetting someone..it makes me feel bad.

so. I wanted them to know. I think highly of them as men. as people. as boys that seem to have respect and kindness in them.

but girls sometimes we lay down our lives for offerings that are worth no more than pennies let alone..the blood that we let flow in phantom hands that catch it.

oh. and you boys. sometimes you do the same thing. you settle for alot less than what you are worth.

hmmm. oh. and a note to a friend. I know why you dont want to open it all up. I understand that. I do. but you should be allowed to work throught it all too. it happened to you too not just to him..I say this with total respect.

anyway.

I should probably clean up my nieces' toys..that would realy make my bro happy.

I Love you all so much

remember how wonderful you are

peace