dear 2004...this is your landlord

Hello 2004....you know..I really wasn't thinking when I had that grande soy cappucino...I mean..I had a coupon I had to use it right? So what if it was like 7 o'clock at night. So what if Im sick as a dog with the sinus infection from hell...I can handle it! Its ok. I took a three hour nap and now Im so awake I can't stand it. And I had this brilliant idea of taking some cough medicine....and instead of bringing relief...I choked on it as my throat decided to tense up and cough as it was going down....2004...I will try be more mindful I promise...I understand you are dependent upon me...you are hoping I find the poetry of my soul again...because otherwise...you will just be a season of re-runs.

I worked 10.5 hours today. non freaking stop. I don't think those words up there are very coherent.

anyway..

Im jealous of everyone that is out right now getting snogged and shagged and brilliantly drunk. There I said it. I feel much better.

I did happen to catch Adult Swim tonight (Im so pathetic) and laughed my fool ass off.....

You know I spent half of 2003 getting over someone....actually...it was like...2002+2003=getting on with things...getting out of the mud puddle. So now my head is just a slant clearer...and I know what I need..and I know what I want...and I struggle to keep my faith in anything good. But I manage to do it. Because love comes out of nowhere and gives you small reminders...that joy and kindness still exist.

well...there is more I could say but...I think its best kept wrapped up in my thoughts...

I thank all of you...near and far for your patience kindness compassion and example....

may this year weave a tapestry of hope for us all

Peace